One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple. (Psalm 27:4)
If I were to describe what I see as the biggest struggle believers have in their Christian walk, near the top would be the struggle to enjoy God.
This is certainly not our only struggle. Christians struggle with many things – some common to us all, some unique to the individual. We struggle with certain besetting sins. We struggle to rest in the Lord. We struggle to live according to the instructions of God’s Word. And we could list many other struggles. But I see this one struggle as perhaps bigger than all the others – the struggle to enjoy God. Christians may ask, why don’t I enjoy God?
While many factors may explain why we don’t enjoy Him, our failure to enjoy God cripples our walk with Him. Too many Christians feel this dread of God that goes beyond the “fear of the Lord” taught in Scripture. In our approach to God, we are plagued with doubts and fears. Will he accept me? Is He angry with me? Some may even wonder, does God really love me? Does He love me as much as He loves someone else? We know that God loves the world, but in a practical sense, we worry that God overlooks me, that He is displeased with me and disappointed with me.
Where do we begin to overcome our own doubts and fears? We read our Bibles; we pray. But for too many Christians, we don’t know how to walk with God beyond that. To add to our dilemma, personal devotions can have a way of choking the life out of us, especially when they become a task on the to-do list.
More than a few Christians, if they could be completely honest, would say, “I really don’t enjoy God.” Some don’t enjoy God and don’t want to. They are angry with God or (more commonly) indifferent towards Him.
Others don’t enjoy God but want to. They might not know how to enjoy Him. Maybe they know how to enjoy Him but feel that they are currently hindered from enjoying Him. No doubt some are frustrated that they don’t enjoy Him, or that they don’t enjoy Him the way they once did, or the way they want to. And some Christians enjoy God just about every day.
I do not write this as one who fits in that last category; I write as one who has had my own share of struggles with this. In part, my own experience has motivated this topic: I haven’t always found this easy. I wish it were. I think it should be. I wish I could lay aside my sinful nature and win this victory once for all. But so long as I continue in my sinful flesh, I believe that I will struggle with it.Continue reading “What It Means to Enjoy God – And Why We Don’t Enjoy Him”